Finally, it's the end of June already. This summer flies by crazily fast. I have finished two out of four classes, which made my July seem so easy breezy:) LOve it love it~
my friends C and her husband B went back to visit yesterday, so they baby dog right now is probably weeping in my living room----if she is not having fun chewing my pillows, chairs and sofa...finger crossed! We kept her in the guest bathroom last night. It was heart breaking to see her sad face coming behind that door. Since it's always my husband who chased her there highly against her free will, now she seems to be scared and always tries to hide behind me or a piece of furniture when he is pointing to that scary and dark corner . Her little dog head probably thinks a subject covering her can probably eliminate her existence for a while. Poor dog! So, David and I decided to let her stay in the living room for today, and I will go back to check on her during my one hour lunch break. I was telling myself that she was a trustworty dog, and she has passed the age of chewing random stuff.... Let's hope my assumption is correct.
I realized in just a few days that dogs are very much like a child, they all fall under the category of "the sweet burden". I have been thinking about the small being for a whole morning. When I found out that I actually have an hour break, I was happy and releaved, but still had a thought of "seriously, do I really have to go back in such a hot weather by bus?" we are selfish in a lot of ways, and the best way to monitor the selfishness in our life is to either have a severely illed parent, or a high maintainness pet or a child. I have seen my own selfishness popping out due to the first two circumstances. He knows the best. He surely knows how to shape me and mold me. I have a general idea what the potter's hands are shaping me into, and I'd love to see the results, but if there is a way for me escape the process, I will do whatever I can to make it happen. Yet it won't happen that way. I have so many worldly desires that I want to keep... so many that it hurts when they are ripped off.
This is a season which is supposed to be relaxing, though my heart is very much full and heavy. I don't know what might be like in 40 minutes when I am standing in my living room; I don't know what it'll be like in a month; I really want to know, but the one-computer-screen distance makes every anxiety one person can possibly have very much in vain...
Guess I'll just have to wait.
Monday, June 27, 2011
Monday, June 13, 2011
Shower, ribs and life in general
It's Monday again. In the summer, I go to work at 7:45 am every Monday and Wednesday. I work for 4 hours, then go to class in 15 minutes. School has been going well. D said to me last night that you surely like summer semester, don't you! I guess I really do, not much into the getting-up-in-the-morning part though ...other than that, I think my summer has been great.
I have two courses ending around the 25th of this month, and I have finished all the assignments for the two classes already!! Now, just getting ready for the two midterms and one final by reading and googling. Not bad.
D and I are putting a baby shower together for a friend. We are both very excited. I have already had many crazy and impractical ideas about the party. But we know for sure we are going to make a super duper cute CCC and some yummy awesome DDD, and something else. Sorry for those capitlized letters. I'm trying to keep my mouth shut while I'm revealing my secrets :) If the budget allows, I really want to go to the Party City in Tiger Town for some cool and fun decors. We'll see.
Yesteday, B and C told me about their appointment with a specialist in East Alabama Medical Center for B's ribs. For the record, it was after church. so the whole atmosphere was still pretty biblical. Hearing the situation, I said: awwww... and then the real me kicked in, so I had to be truthful, so I said: ribs... barbecue ribs... Dramatically, an once-a-life-time phenomenon happened: I have never seen B's two eye brows transfer to one whole line so fast, along with super expanded nostrils. It all happened so fast that my American husband only grasped "排骨". He was amused that we were so happy and excited about 排骨, so he chuckled. After the drama, we showed curtesy to each other by waving goodbye peacefully. As usual, our drive home was nice... at least the first third of the road. Then, at the very beginning of the second thirds, D suddenly asked: is rib 排骨 ( he especially made very good up and down on the 骨 part.). I was puzzled and didn't know what that was from (duh!). I said: yeah... then he started laughing : B 的排骨... yeah, like I said before, my husband is a very happy fellow, he can double or tripple the happiniess, so he can chuckle all the time :) Love it love it~
I'm thinking about making some change around my living room. Going to Hobby Lobby for some floral ideas today after class. But guess, you guys don't care except my husband. Cool. Have a good day!
I have two courses ending around the 25th of this month, and I have finished all the assignments for the two classes already!! Now, just getting ready for the two midterms and one final by reading and googling. Not bad.
D and I are putting a baby shower together for a friend. We are both very excited. I have already had many crazy and impractical ideas about the party. But we know for sure we are going to make a super duper cute CCC and some yummy awesome DDD, and something else. Sorry for those capitlized letters. I'm trying to keep my mouth shut while I'm revealing my secrets :) If the budget allows, I really want to go to the Party City in Tiger Town for some cool and fun decors. We'll see.
Yesteday, B and C told me about their appointment with a specialist in East Alabama Medical Center for B's ribs. For the record, it was after church. so the whole atmosphere was still pretty biblical. Hearing the situation, I said: awwww... and then the real me kicked in, so I had to be truthful, so I said: ribs... barbecue ribs... Dramatically, an once-a-life-time phenomenon happened: I have never seen B's two eye brows transfer to one whole line so fast, along with super expanded nostrils. It all happened so fast that my American husband only grasped "排骨". He was amused that we were so happy and excited about 排骨, so he chuckled. After the drama, we showed curtesy to each other by waving goodbye peacefully. As usual, our drive home was nice... at least the first third of the road. Then, at the very beginning of the second thirds, D suddenly asked: is rib 排骨 ( he especially made very good up and down on the 骨 part.). I was puzzled and didn't know what that was from (duh!). I said: yeah... then he started laughing : B 的排骨... yeah, like I said before, my husband is a very happy fellow, he can double or tripple the happiniess, so he can chuckle all the time :) Love it love it~
I'm thinking about making some change around my living room. Going to Hobby Lobby for some floral ideas today after class. But guess, you guys don't care except my husband. Cool. Have a good day!
Friday, June 3, 2011
DISAGREE
Now it's summer semester. Things have been great, just don't really want to read my textbooks. they are just too boring. I haven't figured out how to pass my finals yet, and to be honest, I'm not very concerned. God is going to provide, right:)
I have been thinking about the "unconditional support". I'm wondering how much real love is actually in there. It appears so easy to be soft and warm to your friends, who are planning on doing something stupid or outrageous. When they sit across the coffee table, puring their heart out, we are supposed to show love and care through our eyes and gestures. Supposedly. The classic line is always: I will support you no matter what... I will always be there if you want to talk. Why can't we just tell them that they are indeed stupid and compulsive? I mean, we do tell our sisters, brothers, spouses, and even parents that, right? Why, suddenly, do we turn to be so harsh and cold? why so different from how you treat your friends?
My very rational yet extreme understanding is that we'd love to play "cool" in our life when cool and nice can work to increase the admiration and love from our social group, which miraculously feeds our own ego. We all know that we won't live with the consequences coming with our friends' decisions for long. We could choose to stay put for a while, then we could go ahead and say: I will always support you like I have always been, but you need to move on... is that the only thing you can talk about when you are with me? aren't there supposed to be more than that? .... Those cards play well all the time.
However, when we deal with family, we are so practical, real, mean (even) and truthful. We don't care shouting that we don't agree, because we know the ideas being discussed are stupid/ bad; we know if we failed to keep our stance, someone will be in trouble; we know that consequences are not joking; esp, we know very well that WE will be part of the consequences as well.
So which one is more of love?
People don't say it much, but they categorize their friends. At least, I do. I don't mind saying "I disagree" to the friends I care, and I wish I can say more.And, you do the same too.
Love y'all.
I have been thinking about the "unconditional support". I'm wondering how much real love is actually in there. It appears so easy to be soft and warm to your friends, who are planning on doing something stupid or outrageous. When they sit across the coffee table, puring their heart out, we are supposed to show love and care through our eyes and gestures. Supposedly. The classic line is always: I will support you no matter what... I will always be there if you want to talk. Why can't we just tell them that they are indeed stupid and compulsive? I mean, we do tell our sisters, brothers, spouses, and even parents that, right? Why, suddenly, do we turn to be so harsh and cold? why so different from how you treat your friends?
My very rational yet extreme understanding is that we'd love to play "cool" in our life when cool and nice can work to increase the admiration and love from our social group, which miraculously feeds our own ego. We all know that we won't live with the consequences coming with our friends' decisions for long. We could choose to stay put for a while, then we could go ahead and say: I will always support you like I have always been, but you need to move on... is that the only thing you can talk about when you are with me? aren't there supposed to be more than that? .... Those cards play well all the time.
However, when we deal with family, we are so practical, real, mean (even) and truthful. We don't care shouting that we don't agree, because we know the ideas being discussed are stupid/ bad; we know if we failed to keep our stance, someone will be in trouble; we know that consequences are not joking; esp, we know very well that WE will be part of the consequences as well.
So which one is more of love?
People don't say it much, but they categorize their friends. At least, I do. I don't mind saying "I disagree" to the friends I care, and I wish I can say more.And, you do the same too.
Love y'all.
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